This Is What I See

Full Title: This Is What I See, This is How I Feel

This is what I see:
Myself enveloped in the chaos you create,
A wasteland of sinewy entrails
All written in my brain.
I know I have seen you before--
Etched in my memories,
The memories I try to erase.
Remember, tender one,
You are lost in my eyes, forever;
This is how I feel, you see?
Do you understand? This is what
Has forgiven us.

How could I pass up the opportunity to write a nice gh3y complimentary poem!?!

This piece...is kind of scary... I apologize...but not really, fuck you people who think I'm weird. I would agree with you, however. This is kind of kicking back to some of the stuff I used to do, and was labeled as "Cyndy-like" or similar associations. I did this one a week or so after I returned home from New York to my luxious penthouse double-wide pimped out trailer back in the V.I. w00t...home sucks wild monkey ass. It's great, it allows me to come up with this shit! I was feeling a bit depressed and stuff, lonely and the like. So yes, this was what I saw, and putting it on paper did make me feel a bit better.

So, I just took some of my toothy-ass Strathmore watercolor paper, took a piece of black conte and just started moving my hands making shapes of what I saw. Put some water in a shot glass and used it to shape what I had drawn. Then I went oh my I could fux around with oil pastels. When I was done, the black wasn't black enough so I did some of the outlines in ink. And then the insanity was thus recorded. Took around 4-5 hours on 9" x 11" paper. B00bies? I like b00bies. Blood and masturbation...hrm...did I mention I was frustrated? Lol. This piece is just so weird and straight out of my head that I don't even know how to further explain it. So I'll stop trying, and just let you all look.

As a closing note, I'll just mention that it is pretty expressive and surreal and means something (what, I don't know, lol) to me. I realize the faces from my piece "My Sweet Prince" popped up on here, which I think is freaky. Unresolved issues? Lol. Whatever, I hope next time I'll do something even more fucked up!

Enjoy my piece, can't promise many more submissions because I think I've gone visually dry atm. *sad face* And I brought all my art supplies with me on the plane, such a shame. Hope everyone is enjoying their summer, having a good time, and perhaps doing some art for me to look at. ^_^